I do realise this year is the best in all of my life. Since last year was horrible, it seems like everything got recompensated. The thing is, I am quite happy now. Though I am really busy. So, one of my resolution is to cosplay sweet pool which I really love. If you have played games from Nitro+ Chiral, you would know, wouldn’t you? Nitro+ Chiral used to create some bishoujo games like Saya no Uta, but they switched it into BL games for some reason. As far as I know, the first one is Togainu no Chi (lately the anime has come out?), next is Lamento-Beyond the Void-, and this, sweet pool.
I didn’t mean to follow this game, but a fujoshi friend of mine got me to play because she insisted that this should be my cup of tea. And she was right. I can say I love sweet pool with no hesitation. Even though there are some scenes which make me sick, the storyline is so sad. My top is Mirage of Blaze even now, but this comes to my No. 2! I don’t mean to give away any spoilers, but there is no happy ending in this game. Not like any other otome games or BL at all. If you can’t stand it, maybe you shouldn’t play. Actually after I finished all the arc, I cried out. ハッピーエンドがないなんて悲し過ぎるよ！So that is why most fangirls try to create fan-fiction to make a happy ending for their own. I don’t do that, but if here is such a doujinshi, I would take it for sure.
Oh no, let me talk about this cosplay. A while ago, I got an e-mail from a girl via Cure(Cosplayers’ SNS). She told me she is a cosplayer and likes my cosplays, especially my Tetsuo. I haven’t uploaded the Tetsuo photos here because of a certain reason. She also told she and her friends would come to Tokyo from Fukuoka Prefecture, and asked me to take my Tetsuo. OMG, what should I do? いや～オジサン参ったな＾＾At any rate, I cosplayed the two leads, Sakiyama Youji[崎山蓉司] and Shironuma Tetsuo[城沼哲雄]. I don’t usually cosplay more than two characters from one series, so…I realise I so love it.
And, I shall dedicate this cosplay to my internet friend, ponytale. I hope she likes it.
Ladies and gentleman, my name is Sebastian Michealis. I am a butler, working for my goshujinsama[master] bangin. He told me he will be late because he has to work overtime tonight, so I am here to tell you a message from him.
My goshujinsama is really pleased to have a lot of messages from you on his previous entry, so he really wants to say thank you very much. I am so happy that he has such gentle internet friends. I would like to say, thank you very much. Besides, he said he has nothing to give so the only one thing he can do for you is to show his cosplay. So long as there is at least one person who sees his cosplay, he will go on cosplaying. But now, as I have said he won’t come home tonight. So…I, Sebastian shall be humbly at your service. Read the rest of this entry »
This post is so depressing that I shall recommend you not to read if you are in a bad mood.
It is too good to be just a coincidence, I mean, is something going on around me? I will tell what happened later. Well, when I was talking to my friend on skype, she told me Japanese TV show she had watched. The documentary was about the high rate of suicide in Japan, and now more and more people are dying every single day. The strange thing is, that some of them wouldn’t be indentified. When a corpse is found, the police try to identify, however sometimes they can’t do because there is no identification like a driver’s lisence or that sort of thing. And even if there is, there would be no relatives who can take the corpse. It is because the person is so old that the parents already passed away, or because the person has no children, or drifted apart. If no one comes to pick up, the corpse would either go to waste or be used for medical students to prosect. Today, people die a solitary death all alone, and no one else knows…that is 無縁死[muenshi] or neglected death. 無縁[muen] means neglect, and 死[shi] means death. The era of 無縁死 has come…that is 無縁社会[muen shakai] or neglected society. That was the subject of the show my friend watched.
Yesterday, I witnessed a nightmare. On the way to home, as I was climbing the slope by bike, I saw some people were looking at the same direction on the top of the slope. I just did the same, and there was a corpse of an old man. He seemed to jump off from the parking lot inside the department store. I was so scared that I left the spot immediately. It was too painful to see. My friend, I am not lying.
Just after I heard of such a TV show, I witnessed something like that. Is this just a coincidence? It really chilled my spine. Whatever happened to his corpse after that, I don’t know, I don’t want to know. But if no one can identify the old man and no one comes to pick him up, he would go to a neglected grave, 無縁墓地[muen bochi]. In this case, he was found just after he died because he did so in public. But what if he had died alone in his room? No one would have noticed his death if he had lived himself. In fact, there was another guy in the show. It was not until the odor spread out that the landlady noticed. He lived himself, no children, no wife, and his parents passed away. He didn’t seem to have friends after he retired. How could anyone know he died in his room?
The more I watched the show, the more I felt scary…and sad. Because you know, no one else could notice even when you die, and no one comes to you even if you die. It’s too sad.
I live myself at the apartment, and there is no one who pays a visit me. If I want to see someone, I have to go out. Well, I often e-mail my brother and sister so that either would think something odd if I stopped e-mail. But even that, I don’t know how long it will take. In fact, I had a terrible flu and a stomach infection at the same time last May. All of a sudden I felt sick and fainted. I tried to call someone, but none of them answered the phone at the moment. So I managed to call the ambulance though I didn’t want to do. Just after it turned out to be a flu, they released me, but there was no one coming to pick me up. こんなのってありかよ～（苦笑）Well, I am not saying I got angry, but I just felt people are all alone.
It reminds me of something. Please see this picture in 2ch. I don’t know who came up with this, but it is a picture which embodies a NEET’s life at right. However, 2ch bugs started to discuss how we interpret this picture. In this picture, a person (we can’t tell the age and even the sex) wakes up, saying おはよう 今日もいい天気だ[Good morning, it is fine today]. And he (let’s say) is going to the table for breakfast, saying 朝ごはんを食べよう[I am gonna eat breakfast]. パクパクモグモグ[pakupaku mogumogu] is onomatopoeia in comics when someone is eating. In the final panel, he is crying, that’s all. What is this supposed to mean? There are a lot of interpretation. It could be an unemployed man, or could be a widower. The reason why he is crying, might be that he is jobless or he has been lonely after his wife passed away. I might say it is an old widower who is scared of 無縁死. What do you think?
I can’t still come off the terror of 無縁死 because it might happen to me. I am not saying it is to avoid that, but I want to keep in touch with my friends. Even if I stay single, I want friends who kindly talk to me when I get older. But that is not so simple because as time goes by, people wouldn’t be what they used to be. Now even if I see my old classmate, we can’t talk just like we did. Because we are having a different life. He doesn’t know what I am doing, and who I associate with. So don’t I. Come to think of it, I haven’t seen any of them who used to be friends at school for ages. It is not a matter of number, but thing is that you have someone who comes to you when something happens. Once again, it is really sad that nobody notices even when I die.
Thinking about something like that, I watched the episode 19 of Code Geass R2 again. In this episode, it focuses on Lelouch’s younger brother, Rolo. (Spoilers starts) He keeps using the power of Geass to save Lelouch even though he knows it sacrifises his own life. After all, Rolo dies. He was really happy to have Lelouch although they weren’t real brothers. Although Rolo knew Lelouch was cheating him, he was happy to have Lelouch. He had been just an assassin, but he learned how happy having a brother was. The time he spent with Lelouch was true even though the relationship was fake. He wasn’t all alone. Because Lelouch was his side when he died. I so cried at this scene, Rolo’s death was not 無縁死(spolier ends).
Next I watched episode 24th of Neon Genesis Evangelion, yes, Nagisa Kaworu. (Spoiler starts) He was the Last messenger, and his job was to spy on Shinji. But as he spent the time with Shinji, he started to realise his being. And as you know, that famous word…I might have been born to meet you[僕は君に逢うために生まれてきたのかもしれない]. He wished to die for the sake of Shinji. I soooo cried at this scene, Kaworu’s death was not 無縁死(spoiler ends).
The TV show said 無縁社会 will be a more serious matter from now, but I don’t want to believe. I am not ready to die. I want to cosplay more, and there are many countries I want to go! Yes I have many things I want to do. That is why I keep going. But to be honest, there was a time I almost gave up. I think I have said before, but there were almost no good things last year. I was like crawling in the bottomless mud, and there was no rope, no help. I thought things finally settled, but it turned out to be another nightmare. When does this nightmare end? I was always thinking about that. There was no hope, and I thought there was only despair. Now, my life has been far better than before. I don’t want to look back, but I am not sure what will happen in the future. No one knows.
But if I am allowed to say my wish at this moment, let me quote Lelouch’s line,
Okay so here goes Durarara!! cosplay part 2. In this entry, it focuses on our acting. In fact, I directed a bit, so you might be feeling something different from the original. Please be patient that I made a quick dialogue. When I cosplayed with this Izaya cosplayer(Keith) before, I directed his acting and told the photographer(tokyo moe) how I wanted him to take. I did the same thing this time, too. My Izaya did a great job as well as the photographer. By the way, he is far younger than me even though Shizuo and Izaya are the same age. And Keith actually belongs to a certain seiyu agency, however he also does actor things. Now he hasn’t made a debut yet, but I hope he will.
Izaya is something I don’t understand. What he thinks, how he feels, I don’t know at all. Shizuo is still easier to understand; he looks scary, but actually gentle. He just hopes a peaceful life, but for some reason wherever he goes, something happens and he can’t relax. What about Izaya? He is so annoying, and we say ウザい[uzai]. The funny thing is that some fans call him ウザヤ[uzaya] to pun upon his name. At any rate, I think it is really difficult to act Izaya because there is too much interpreting. The same goes to Nagisa Kaworu in Neon Genesis Evangelion. I have cosplayed him before, and it was very difficult to act, I still remember. But…that is why fans try to cosplay, try to understand.
Well, pass over my boring nonsense. I hope you enjoy part Ⅱ. Read the rest of this entry »
I am becoming nervous because I have had too many glad things since this year started. What is waiting for me next? Well, after I had a photoshooting of Durarara!! cosplay I was so disappointed to see the photos we took, because almost all of them were not good at all. Because of my camera? Yes. But the crucial reason is, I guess, the time when the photoshooting took place. I mean if you have watched Durarara!!, you would know from what time Shizuo and Izaya start to move, wouldn’t you? The lead school students are in active during daytime, but as for the two guys, those scenes in which they show are mostly at night. So that is why the photos look boring. Then what shall I do? Try again at night? That’s it, but it is not that simple because it is really difficult to take a photo at night. I needed a much better camera or someone who can handle something like this. One person came to my mind right away, yes, he is the photographer who helped me with my cosplays at the hotel. When he showed me his photos inside his camera, I saw some night shots and they looked awesome. I screwed up my courage and asked him to help me, and he said yes. Oh my god, lucky me! I immediately told my uke-partnerKeith who cosplayed Izaya about this…and this is how we had a photoshooting.
Around 18:00 or so, we three met up at Ikebukuro Station, and started a photoshooting. Because we started from that hour, there was almost no people who could recognise our cosplays as I guessed. And there were a few things I really wanted to do; a fighting scene and chasing scene. And some spots I really took; Tokyu Hands and Sunshine Cinema. We did it all! I was so pleased, and there was nothing else to wish for. Thank you very much, Izaya and the photographer! I will never forget this. Oh I shall explain one term, リベンジ[revenge] to mean to re-do the same cosplay to do better than before. My リベンジ went so well!! Read the rest of this entry »
My life has been hectics lately. Cosplay? Not only that but also other things like meeting new people. A while ago, I met up with the two bloggers from New York, and had fun together. Here comes another oppotunity; I got an e-mail from a Mexican blogger. He told me he was coming to Tokyo for honeymoon, and asked me to have fun. Of course I was on it. 嬉しいなぁ、えへへ＾＾
Last Saturday, we met up at Ueno Station[上野駅]. There the blogger Cat clan-san and his wife, Nanami-san were. Even though it was his first time visiting Japan, his Japanese was brilliant. He told he has studied Japanese for years, and both of them could read Japanese. I guess they could write as well. Cat clan-san really loves cats(neko-moe), so they went to Nanjatown in Ikebukuro to get a nekobag[cat bag] which is a symbol of it. Also he loves Chi Sweet Home. まさかちぃがメキシコで知られていたとは…（笑）Besides, he has been a fan of Sailor Moon for 14 years(!), and knows a lot about seiyu. His favorite is Megumi Hayashibara, Maaya Sakamoto, and Haruko Momoi. He said they were going to her event next day.
The cherry blossom was in full bloom, so we headed to Ueno Park to see. There were too many people to walk straight. But Cat clan-san took us to the spot where less people were. And we took some photos there.
I didn’t forget to ask him to take my portrait because I didn’t want to miss this cherry blossom. Thank you very much.^^
After that, we went to karaoke like I did with Hinano and her husband. You know, I must say karaoke is so popular among foreigners. Anyway, we are anime fans so what are we gonna sing? Yes, there is no need to explain. By the way, Cat clan-san knows some of the songs I chose; Get Wild from City Hunter, The Real Folk Blues from Cowboy Bebop, Hitorijanai from Dragon Ball GT, and Country Road from Mimi wo Sumaseba. And they were singing Blue Seed, Sakura Taisen, Kare Kano, and even Sister Princess! I guess they might be around the same age as me. We were singing some of those songs together. So fun! 超楽しかった！！＾＾
I heard a lot about Mexico from them, and how anime-related events are out there. Well, when I have a wonderful meeting like this, I always think it was nice that I’ve studied English. My English is sucks, though. Well, I’ve got to go on studying!